Oh my gosh, GB... thank you. You are so awesome and I love your support! I think you are amazing and doing so incredibly well.

AJ- My man! Hey... well you bring up some things that had me thinking... and of course I giggled when I read your post at 3AM, "Since you're up anyway" which made me laugh! BC... of course I was!

OK, so Heavy, thanks for joining me. Love your thoughts. So to you and AJ, yeah, you are right. I did what I did and xh is skrewed the f up! I am not going to beat myself up. But when I read things like Cali's sitch and feedback...etc... I know I was OK... but I think that the intensity of everything was so much more exemplified bc of the baby sitch.

Well... anyway... I find life is much easier NOT thinking bout that!

But, reading Notlikingthis's sitch is like OMG! It is like the same OW! I think that's what makes me crazy sometimes.. the entitlement of this chick... and her baby... the tactics...OMG.

However, I am doing much better at removing myself from those crazy thoughts. They do get to me at some point during the day...but...

I had a dream the other night and I swear... it had me enter the mind of MLC! It was crazy, but insightful.

I love my life a little more every day. I now pray to God to help me get over xh. It is VERY scary. I can't believe it. But, I know it is best for me. Even though it goes against every fiber of my being..

Xh seems to be... clueless. I mean... I just dont know what else to say. s18 has a new phone, so he was getting a couple of texts since the new phone wasnt blocked. Xh was texting him that he missed him.

D14 got one tonight that said somehthing like, You don't respond like you used to. Are you mad at me? It breaks my heart.

Now... I didn't go internally crazy in my mind- at all. Thank God! I let it roll. But, as I'm sure xh doesn't notice, I do! D14's text's became more scarce since he casually added that he was living w/ hww again. I mean, to me, it was obvious. His approach w the kids is flippant, and inconsiderate, and totally like... they should always go along w/ his choices. He does not see the correlation.

S18 just reblocked.

We continued to play Uno and joke and laugh... like it was a fly that came in the room momentarily to bother us and was gone. Sad, but grateful that I'm not sweating him anymore.