It's such a hard journey. In the beginning you feel optimistic and hopeful. Then it gets hard. Fast. Signs that change is possible are few and far between. It feels like it works for everyone but not for you. Months go by. You feel like you can act normal and play the game, but deep down you're the same person and you're only kidding yourself. You're living a lie. It won't last. Negative thoughts test you. You keep waiting for the positives to come, but they just don't.
But...if you are REALLY fed up with the way your life has been...you keep on the road ANYWAY. Because you're like, "look voice of doubt, I don't know what lies ahead on this path, maybe you're right, maybe nothing...but I DAMN SURE know what lies ahead on that other road...so back off, I'll just walk down this path come what may"...
Eventually you stop looking for progress, you just keep moving. What seems like a lifetime passes. Things change around you. New job. New place to live. Seasons come and go.
Suddenly one day you look around and realize- YOU DID IT!
You're not where you thought you'd be. You're not the way you pictured yourself...but you are the person you hoped you'd turn into. Suddenly it doesn't seem so impossible, or even difficult.
It will be tough. But you CAN do this. Stay on the road and keep posting
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15
