Is there a bottom?

[bravo61]

thanks ahoy.
yeah i know it would be more than 2x a year it's just that we've gotten so close since i've come here and committed to being the dad i always should've been.

i did see the X tonite at my S game. i stood on one side and she stood on the other. i was pleasant and smiled at her during interactions and actively listened. i wasn't needy or clingy at all. she asked if i could watch the kids tomorrow nite so she could pick up another shift. and of course i said i'd love too. it's just one of the times that i will help her out and not get credit for it. the thing that does bother me about that is that she will throw in my face later that i do "nothing" for them. but that's ok. i'm stoked about seeing the kids. she would say that she's being nice to me to give me extra time. um, that's saving you $150 on sitter costs but lets just gloss over that.

she's also going to Disney World next week and leaving the kids here. kinda shows where he priorities are but i will still be praying for her. i truly understand how she felt when i was seemingly uninterested in my family. that is the only thing that keeps me from hating her right now.

i will mention the other day she admitted that she did not want to get a divorce but she "had to". whatever the hell that means. she also said that she lays in bed at night worried about paying all her bills. i just listened and didn't try to fix anything.