*No real conversation with WAW since November....when I started I was depressed. I was torn apart from my family. I was a disconnected father....I was spiritually numb. And I was thinking of giving up....And looking at where I am vs. where I was...well, I honestly couldn't be happier.
5 months NC. All these amazing positive changes. She knows. She feels it. She probably can't even look you in your eye bc of who you are now.
Thanks guys!
You know, Real, the funniest part? It hadn't even DAWNED on my that my STBX might have noticed anything. I think somewhere a couple of months ago I made peace with the fact that I'd always be worthless and not marriage material, a bad fit, a bad guy, whatever. I'm not minimizing her feelings or my actions during the M, but we're no longer M and I really don't care anymore what she thinks. So the idea that she might someday see something positive in me struck me as rather novel and amusing, like a juggling bear.
I personally don't think her POV will change, but who knows. I'm just glad it's not occupying my thoughts!
And yes, you will get there. Just remember ever moment of suffering is a needed step. Talk soon!
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15
