Toots , I feel that I am still way to attached to W. I know she spends time with OM and it always brings me crashing down. I mind read and assume so much that I drive myself mad. Today W drove into our gates and damaged her car. She called me and I told her that these things happen. When I got home she was very upset and hugged me. She left about an hour later and as she drove out I told her not to worry and it was only a car. W text me 15 mins later to say thanks for the support. Here's my issue. , W lives 20 mins away so couldn't be at home and OW lives 10 mins away so I assume she was outside OMs place. This upset me for about two hours I text W back to say no prob and she just answered thanks
I know I have to detach and that's why I'm weak I was with L/C today as D10 had an appointment ( shel loved it) L/C is still adamant that OM is not romantic and I need to be there for M and by extension my family but I feel that I. can't stay in limbo forever. You have read how W has come forward the last couple of weeks but how do I balance that against her spending time with OM I don't lose sleep over OM but I do get annoyed over my perception of Ws lack of feeling when she texts me from outside OMs place. I will add that W has no idea how much I think about this or even how I feel as I would never ask her anything about her life or give her any idea of how I'm feeling I always present a happy exterior and to be honest I am happy a lot of the time. Nothing happening withS kids tonight as I have a lot of cleaning to do
Pink. I often think of you and so wish we had met years ago There are good reasons that we can't contact each other on this board but I have been thinking of secret codes to give you my email so we could elope and live on a desert island with race tracks and plenty of dancing !!!!!!! Thank you for your support but I am really struggling this week. W is in a long cheeseless tunnel and while i appreciate I have no control, it's so hard seeing someone who was such a great aw and mother change into someone who I dont even know
