I just read your sitch. It actually sounds a lot like mine, but reverse roles. Very early in our M, I found porn on the computer. This devastated me. I did not understand why my H would need this other than I was not satisfying him sexually. I also did not understand the attraction as I am not like the women in those videos. So in my mind, i did not understand why my husband was attracted to me. It made me feel very inadequate from the beginning and was sure he would decide he did not want to me with me. I made the mistake of burying this hurt and never telling H. I just built up walls around me. I told him this story for the first time last weekend.
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Me: 42 H: 40 M: 12 H moved out - 8/2015 I filed - 8/2015
