Back again, advice needed..

[Tulo]

Have been thinking all day and think meeting him now is not what I really want, due to the fact that I feel sure that he's gonna call it quits or try to get me to do it..
Scared to make all the mistakes that I don't want to do, plead, beg, convince and so on..

Thinking of going away for the weekend instead, trying to get something positive in my system and focus on me.
Do you think it's a bad plan, you more experienced DB?

Do I go against him in any negative way, if I ask to push it forward to next week instead, and just go away and get some time to think?

Thankful for any reply!!