Hi Seaside, I wish I could offer advice at this point but I can offer moral support and lend an ear. Read all that Cadet has given you and the books of course. Midlife Crisis is very different and you'll come to understand that it is hard to explain to others who have not had first hand experience.
Take care of yourself first. Try to rest and eat well. Be kind to yourself and know you have support here.
M:25 years at BD w/ 2 daughters BD: 5/14 Separated 6/14 - H moved cross country w/OW D Final 9/17
“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.” ― Maya Angelou