Just woke up and it's early morning here in Sweden. Not much sleep as expected, even my dreams are haunted and I wake up with a pit in my stomach big enough to swallow me whole.
A question. Would you believe him when he says that this has nothing to do with someone else, as in OW? I just feel it's so odd that it goes so quickly that I'm having a hard time thinking it's not involving someone else due to that..
Since it feels so sudden to me, and he even says that the hopes he's not making a mistake making this decision, and that he feels that times we spend together is nice and fun, and that he could make love to me every day, and that he's not in any hurry to figure this out, you still feel it's impossible for me to make any kind of option for him to want to try it some more? Or am I just shooting myself in the foot?
Feels like my foot is pretty much all blown anyway, so it doesn't matter at this point..
Do you think it's any possibility what so ever for me to EVER get him back? Or is any hope for that at this moment just self deception? I feel like I want to focus on what love is and for me it's giving, but at the moment I'm into the not getting the chance to even try part so maybe I'm just so out of wack that it's not even funny.
It feels like he's drowning himself in his kids at the moment, not taking a second to think about this on his own, but just forging ahead all guns blazing. Wish so much that he would stop for a second and think about what we've had and give us a chance to find our way back to that..
Oh, Zues. This hurts so bad, at this very instant. But you know, and you feel better now so hopefully I will do that too. But one long lonely summer is coming up, one I thought we'd share. It hurts like hell..
All my best to you and thank you for all your advice. It helps me, it really does!
M: 44 H: 43 ILYBNILWY: 7/4-15 Decided to try to reconnect. "This doesn't work, I have no feelings": 20/4-15 Scheduled "talk" :9/5-15 It's over: 9/5
