As I wrote, I registered for an online dating site. My objective was to just confirm that "I was not alone" of people in similar sitchs.
I was going to be all dating site 'lurker,' w/o making any moves at all just seeing what was out there and maybe find some folks to hang out with socially. But I guess when you "like" a profile it emails that person. uhhh...oops.
So I got a reply seemingly out of the blue and we started to strike up an (email) conversation. It didn't take long to see that both of us were still not secure with our sitchs, even though we haven't talked about anything particular about them; just that we both 'suddenly' found ourselves on a dating site and not really sure where we are or what our next steps were.
I wouldn't say that this complicates anything at all right now, its just nice to have some companionship. We both pretty much stated we were just trying to meet new people to talk to. Plus, there's >60 mile difference in our locations.
Here's the only thing that concerns me about it. I've been an open book to my close friends about my sitch; telling them just about anything that happens (its how I deal) but for this (registering on the site and now with contact) I see myself clamming up and keeping quiet about it. I'm not sure why. I guess it is out of my comfort zone and all, but I'm trying to figure out if its something else. Is it something subconsciously that I'm struggling with and am not honest with myself...like:
-Maybe I do want to move on; but I don't want to tell myself that -Maybe this is my first step to a 'date' but I'm acting like its not -Maybe I feel somewhat hypocritical that I'm DBing and standing for our M; but am looking for a connection outside it (yeah, this one to a much lesser extent. WW made it clear she doesn't want to talk with me)
I've talked to my closet friend about the site, but can't seem to say anything about talking with someone.
Anyone got any experience with this (I'm sure folks do)
M:36 W:37 T: 15 M:11 S6 D5 BD: 8/10/14 IDLY: 8/12/14 S: 8/13/14 (she left, I stayed w/ kids) D Mentioned: 10/15/14 Confronted about OM: 10/15/14 EA: ~4/13 PA: ~10/13 She filed: 8/15 (not final)
