I know there are no guarantees but.....

[Sherman333]

I have been saying for months that this isnt a total bad thing in that it woke me the hell up as to my negative attitude and how I was allowing someone else's actions to affect my actions within my family, friends and job. I would have preferred the end result to be different but it is over and done (divorce).....but I still have hope or I am trying to

It's a rough thing realizing how your behaviors got in the way of something good. Remember, forgiveness is the gift you give yourself.

I can certainly understand the not sleeping part. I've been on a heck of rollercoaster myself. I have a ways to go yet to my BD.

How she'll know is the interactions with your Step Son. He'll tell her some of what you do and your interactions with him. It's possible to move a mountain 1 shovel full at a time... but it takes time.

At the very least and if nothing else happens, you might be instrumental is helping your step son to find his way in life; a different male perspective besides your FIL. That alone is worth a lot... regardless of your M.

Focus on what you have and put your love into that. For me it's my 7 year old son.

Anyway... just some random thoughts.