Hi RD - I feel better but I am really tired lately. I guess a bit of disappointment with H, kind of put me down.
I think about R and what it would look like if we get back together. I am afraid, really scared that I may not be able to let go all the hurt in my heart.
H is gone for the second week and during this time just texted me once and it was just asking me a favor to pay for something. He tried to contact the kids on last Sunday night, the kids did not answer his call and he did not leave a message for them.
So, totally absent. He does not care about us at all. I even think that it is OK that he does not care about me. But his kids!!!! He is not divorcing his kids and yet he does not care about them as well.
He is just a guy that has no respect, no values, I don't know why I waste my time feeling anything for this idiot.
I am really mad with him. I am getting to the conclusion that I am better off alone.
