While my D is already final, I understand EXACTLY what you mean about him trying to call any love you ever had for him. I loved the man my XH used to be, but the one he has become is a virtual stranger to me and I don't like him at all. It almost makes the D worth it all because I am away from him.
Hang in there...it DOES get better. I advocate marriage all the way, but sometimes people change and time away is the best thing.
Me 52, H53 Bomb drop 9/29/2014 Divorce from XH final 12/17/2014 Marriage #2 12/31/2019 5 adult (step)daughters (3 from XH's first marriage, 2 from current H's previous relationships) 6 grandkids