Thanks Edz and Gan. I had a much better day today. Went off into town this morning, did some shopping and had coffee out, whilst doing some prep for my interview tomorrow. Logged on to work after lunch to find my formal interview invite, and that there is a short presentation to be delivered.....so you can guess how I spent my afternoon!
Edz, I'm enjoying having puss here. She sleeps alot, but loves being groomed, so we've had a number of rebonding sessions with the brush. You are right about frustration and impatience. Neither are useful for us. And I realised I am putting stuff on H - 'he hasn't come back to me again' - when I can also think ' that's me being impatient and feeling frustrated.' So, I'm just trying to reframe things. I also started a gratitude journal today.
Gan, the loving kindness meditation is a Jon Kabat Zinn one. He has three apps on the app store, linked to his books, and I have them all. The meditation starts with feeling unconditional love for yourself, much in the way a parent might feel for their child - and basking in the feel of that self-love and acceptance. Then it broadens out into feeling that love for someone who you may be finding it harder to love. I did try it with H and it seemed to go okay. Towards the end of the meditation it broadens out to love of your community and those within it, of animals, and blossom on the trees, and the world.
I felt very peaceful afterwards. Well, I'm off to yoga tonight and then working away (plus interview) tomorrow. Have a nice evening all xx
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
