I am going to stop texting. No insisting contact. Today has been terrible. She finally said that it was the no touching, no intimacy that we had that has caused most of this. She feels ugly and ashamed. My porn addiction violated our marriage just like an affair, and I would have to agree. I cheated on my wife, with fantasy and a computer screen.
She has said that she doesn't think we can be happy together. She doesn't think she can work through this, and that she has too much other stress in her life to deal with it. She feels sorry for hurting me, and the girls. Her feelings are her feelings though, and I can't fault her for that.
Does this really mean it's over. Do I finally need to just throw in the towel, and say to heck with it. I'm going to my doctor today to figure out meds for me. I've got a lead for a therapist, just have to find the time to go. I keep telling myself to just give up, but I can't and really don't want to. Deep inside, I still have feelings for her. I just don't know if I can ever get over all of this with her.
How can I show her that I will be changing, and that I will be a better man. She doesn't even care anymore, no feelings for me at all. So lost, so frustrated at myself. Where can I possibly go from here?
