I am so pleased you are feeling a little better; you have been through such a lot in the past year. Its great you have your job and kids to keep you distracted, but don't forget to feel what you have to so you can let it go and continue healing.
Gwen, its natural to feel sad about different anniversaries, at the moment they serve as reminders of what we have lost, but remind yourself of how far you have come since this time last year; you have grown as an individual and become so much stronger. You have also become a good friend to many on here, your support to help others in the same situation is testament to your caring character.
If you do fall into the pit then holler and we shall be there with hands ready to pull you back out again.