Hi RD, thanks for your kind words. They meant a lot to me last night after a bit of a low day. Last night I lay on my bed and pounded it with my fists like a two year old having a tantrum - that helped a little. l started the morning with a loving kindness meditation, and that has helped too. I'm going to have a better day today, and start to think about reframing things.

In the longer term I think it may just be a choice for me:

Accept that H is unlikely to agree to what I would prefer in terms of formal separation and financial settlement, and carry on as we are for a while...

or, take control myself and file for D...

I think at the moment I just need to work on my own frustration because it isn't helping me to feel this way. So I am practicing a little more compassion towards H and his current situation in order to release myself a little more if that makes sense.

So, hopefully I'll be reporting back on a better day today. It's true that going to the MH throws me off balance. But on the plus side, I hopefully get back on the wagon pretty quick too. It's interview day tomorrow, so I'll do some prep today and log on for work too. Yoga class this evening.

Have a good day my DB friends xx

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus