[BrightFuture]

Thanks for your support, Bea, Gwen, Job, uRworthy. I’m keep going… Just have some moments sometimes…

Job, journaling is not exactly my thing. I’m more likely looking for some feedback, for some response when I post. By the time I post, I’ve already done all the journaling in my head. The reason I’m still on this board that people still listen to me, as opposed to my friends and family, who want nothing to do with my feelings anymore. Job, you are the one who keeps me grounded. Your advice is always well thought out and right on target.

uR, I’m very grateful that you stopped by and posted your thoughts. I‘ve been reading your advice on other threads and I’ve been trying to apply it to my situation. I get what you are saying, that it is not possible to know what in other people’s heads. I also think you hit the nail in the head when you said “Otherwise we can get caught up in where they are...and thats not where we need to be.”

This is how I feel right now. I feel like my head is not in the right place, like I’m stuck and don’t know how to get out of this… I almost feel what H is feeling. Does it make sense? I wish I would express my feeling better. It looks like I’m moving on… But, it also feels like I’m back to where I was…

I’ve been having these feelings of deep disbelieve and hurt recently, the same feelings I had right after the BD. It will be years in June…

I just wish there was already time when I had enough… I don’t know when this time comes… I wish very soon…