The anxiety was killing me so I casually asked my wife why she told me she loved me last week. (Note, this may have been the wrong thing to do, but it was the right thing for me. The anxiety, the not knowing anything, was going to eat me alive).
Anyway, the answer was "well I'll always love you and I haven't said that in a while." Sounds a lot like ilybinilwy right? She said she also appreciated the space and that it wasn't like a pressure cooker at home. Then she said, but we can't go on like this forever right. I said, "no, not forever." So, she said, why don't we check in on Friday with where we are.
Right now, this seems better than limbo. (can't remember if I posted this or not, but my wife and I were separated 5 years ago and the limbo nearly did me in then, so I know I can't take the limbo). But, I will be very anxious on Friday night. I'm going to do my best to prepare to hear "we should separate" or "we should get a divorce." I mean she already said 3 weeks ago that we should get a divorce and then she decided she wanted space to think about it.
So, my question is this, assuming she says she wants a S or D, how do I react. Frankly, at that point, I think I'll just be ready to move on, so how do I do that with dignity?
I think I would like to stay in the house. However, in my state no one can kick the other out of the house. Anyone have any ideas on how to get her to leave? Alternatively, I've been looking at apartments so I could just go (after getting everything legally lined up with D's).
