I can relate. My mom is good for a snap out of dose of tough love. I had to talk to her through this process about how sometimes, I don't want positivity, the right ways of thinking about things, and instructions as to how I should be feeling. Sometimes I just want to be listened to and told it's ok to feel the feels and to be understood.
I realized I picked up these rather annoying habits of 'comforting' someone from my mom and I was calling as a kettle to the pot.
You're trying to digest a lot, but see if you can take yourself back to how you grew up. I'm not one for blaming parents for snything, but sometimes it is helpful to understand where and how we were shaped?
Good luck with all your endeavors, Miman. Become the man a fool would have to leave
Mid 30's Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH D 9/15; NC forever on