Coming Home

[mleigh4]

hhmmmm thinking about my earlier post and something is nagging at me.

"He just can't accept us for who we are. Me, S, the dog, all a disappointment to H."

H has never said these words to me, this is how I feel based on things he says, but it doesn't mean that is what he is thinking. I have felt and reacted on those feelings for a really long time, which drove a wedge in between us. I felt like I could not be myself. However, was I doing that to myself? H would push S and I to do things, and he has commented on his frustration that we don't like doing a lot of things he likes to do, but does that mean he doesn't still love us? Was it my own negative talking in my head that made something simple into something so personal?

I will need to sit on that one for a while. My mind can be my worst enemy.