I hucked a waterfall.

[mahhhty]

Good Afternoon All... DISCLAIMER: Moment of weakness will follow.... I'm feeling a little anxious and over caffeinated today. I FINALLY squared away my benefits and health insurance stuff. A step in the right direction but it was a little funky to deal with. I think this feeling was only enhanced by my recent mind reading (from our interaction last Friday) about how she may or may not be doing/feeling/etc. Its none of my business, but it does affect what I think about.

My mind takes current situations that IT perceives as POSSIBLY favorable and begins to think, twist, or manipulate them or even worse it tries to identify actions that I could do to enhance favorable situations. All based on mind reading. Examples of this is the idea of reaching out to her sister and asking how she is doing, and have refrained in general from asking her family (Mom, Dad or Sister) any questions. After all I am an engineer by nature. Over analysis to ensure the right outcome is how my brain is built or has been developed. I'd love to tell her that I miss her, or have a last kiss to replace the drunken one, or about the dream I had last night or perhaps a million other things I have thought about.

Anyway, moment of weakness is over..........

I did reach out to X this AM. My D is 4, turns 5 in October. In her newsletter from pre-school they talked about Art Sessions for 5-12 year olds. Immediately I approached the teacher asking if our D could attend even though she is 4. The teacher had a bunch of nice things to say about D and said Yes. So being a good coparent that I am (or am trying to be) I reached out and said the following... I think I did alright, but my perspective is biased. How did I really do?

Via Email:
X,
I contacted Mrs. Teacher and they will let D participate in the Art Classes, see below. I am thinking about both the Art Makes Music Class and the Let’s Create Make-Believe. I am sure she would love those! What do you think? Also, before we make a decision I would like to see the Calendar. I can generate the calendar on my own, all I need to know is your planned vacations.

- mahhhty