I know there are no guarantees but.....

[XFit14]

This is kind of premature since I have not posted my story yet for people to comment on.
But, as I stated earlier, I have been reading the books (although I may have switched to the wrong book inadvertently DB from DR) and I have been reading tons of posts and threads and have implemented the techniques (going dark, detatching etc)
My question, and like I said, it could be a bit premature, is how is my (now) ex-wife giving me the gift of time?

How is this a gift?

I have lost the person I have waited a long long LONG time to meet and marry.
I screwed up (no infidelity and I will explain in my story post later today) and made some mistakes with how I handled some things and I basically drove her away (I think) but how is this a gift to me?

I know I can make it through this and I know I can be strong and confident and make myself happy and be happy and all that.
I want that for sure.
But, I also would really really like it to be with her.

We weren't perfect but we were good together.
Im not being dilussional.
I have had the dating life from hell my entire life and finally (FINALLY) thought I had found the woman I was going to stay married to all my life.
How is time away from her a gift??