Coming Home

[mleigh4]

I think that hits what I am feeling, just an honest disinterest in him these days. I have no desire to talk with or hang out with him, as he is today. Anger definitely got me to this point, but it has helped me to detach in a huge way.

Pick up of S was interesting yesterday. Once again, dog did not want to go. H now has an open bed pick up truck for work, dog had not been in it yet. As usual, H got irritated with her, "dogs like riding in trucks! What kind of lab are you?" It hit a nerve with me as one of my biggest issues with H is his constant criticism of S and I. He just doesn't get that people have different ideas of fun, different likes and dislikes, and always got so frustrated with us that we were not into four wheeling, boating, roughing it camping.......He just can't accept us for who we are. Me, S, the dog, all a disappointment to H.

So he got her in the back of the truck, she was shaking like a leaf. I said, just put her in my truck, I can drive her there. H said no, she will be fine. He mentioned the idea of getting a new dog. Again, hit a nerve with me. But if it means my dog can just stay in her home on a regular basis, fine with me.

Just another night filled with a sense of relief, that I don't have to deal with him on a day to day basis. I also have been entertaining the idea, maybe I COULD be happier with someone who actually gets me, and someone I get. Because I don't get H at all.