I've been reading thru some forums lately. As a man, I must be honest with myself. I want another woman, I need another woman. After years of having the sexual and intimate connection, and now it's just gone. I see other men talking about dating and getting out. I know what it is. Men need that connection and look for it all the time for validation and for security. All we want is the closeness and feeling it gives us. I haven't had that for 2 years now, and a piece of me is missing greatly. But it's not the right piece and I'm not ready to do that yet. Yes I flirt with other women from time to time, but I'm thinking with my other brain so to speak. I don't like that.
I thought I needed another one quickly to fill the void I have, but really I need to be right. I could even hold onto a one night stand right now let alone another woman. And I would feel miserable afterwards anyway. I seriously just want this to be over so I can finally feel free to do what I want for a change. I'm still basing my actions off of W, and her reactions to it. The best I have felt was when she was gone and I got away for a while. Not having to see her bad moods and all the pain I caused her. I don't know how else to explain it.
