Suddenly filled with anxiety and having a very hurting heart. Why? I listened to the radio, something that I love to do. I listened to a show called "serious discussions" where they talk about questions listeners send to the show. I wish I hadn't.
One woman had sent in a question about a man she had been on a date with, who had said that he wasn't interested and wished her good luck for the future. She wanted to see him again and asked what she could do to have a chance with him.
The host said that if a partner says they don't want to be with you, or say that they don't know if they want to be with you, it's more or less the same thing. Then it's not right and you should just be happy that the person has been straight with you and move on.
So now I suddenly get all these fears that me keeping away is gonna feel like heaven to him and only accomplishing that he misses me less.. Or something.. I'm not even sure what I'm feeling, I just no that I feel crap and instead of starting reaching out to him, I'm venting here.. Hope that is ok.
Just off to the movies, doing everything I can to keep busy, portraying that I have a happy life and hopefully he'll notice and reach out. Fingers crossed!!
BIG hugs to all of you out there going through this..
M: 44 H: 43 ILYBNILWY: 7/4-15 Decided to try to reconnect. "This doesn't work, I have no feelings": 20/4-15 Scheduled "talk" :9/5-15 It's over: 9/5
