My suggestion is that you reread my first post, put aside GB post for now, although I think it was good advice, you are not ready for it yet.
You will need to revisit these issues down the road. Avoiding them will just mean continued failure.
In life we tend to cycle, with our problems and stuffing them away is only avoidance. We circle back to these issues again and again, being tested until we become who we are suppose to be.
Yes keep posting and learning. Understand that their are no quick fixes or magic buttons.
Lots of events took place to get us to this spot and many more will be needed for us to look inside ourselves and heal.
