I thought everything was okay....(Part 5)

[Mozza]

Interesting again to see you a few steps ahead of me. I haven't had this feeling of "being family" alone with the kids, even though we do a lot of stuff. It still feels like a temporary period. I'm glad you're having such a good time with them. I've been meaning to take mine to a circus too.

I sometimes wonder what WW would think if she realized that I think so much about the sitches. In many ways, my feelings have calmed down but not changed. If anything, as the magnitude of the consequences is hitting me, I increasingly feel that it would have been so much easier to fix things. It's like day 1.

Reading your post I had a realization that is always easier with other people sitches. In your dream, she asks you if this thing is repairable. I thought: "No MCS, she is not wondering if YOU think it's repairable, she knows you think so. She is wondering if she wants to repair it." And then I remembered that it applies to my sitch and all those dialogues in my head with WW about how this is repairable are pointless, they do not even address the issue.

For BIL, yes it's better that you let her come to you. She'll choose if she wants your input and support. Plus, she might be uncomfortable when she realizes that you know and that will open a whole new can of worms.