Went to the circus with the kids tonight. We had a blast, the kids were so excited they rode on the Elephants, and were enthralled the whole time.
....and then it hit me on the way home. This was 'our' new family, w/o WW. I am doing this, I've been just fine moving forward if these are the cards I'm handed. But why? It almost felt like the first family gathering after my younger sister passed. We were all together having a good time, but we were not complete. That feeling has gotten better over the last four years about my sister, but we all still struggle; especially my parents. But that wasn't anyone's choice in what happened...this is. Why?
Uggh, backslide the last few days. I guess I'm getting to be so comfortable without WW that I have moments that I realize it and just start wondering why it feels like I wasn't even given a chance to preserve the family that both her and I worked so hard on and were so proud of. What changed....
M:36 W:37 T: 15 M:11 S6 D5 BD: 8/10/14 IDLY: 8/12/14 S: 8/13/14 (she left, I stayed w/ kids) D Mentioned: 10/15/14 Confronted about OM: 10/15/14 EA: ~4/13 PA: ~10/13 She filed: 8/15 (not final)
