Me, I decided to apply a huge hand brake to r. That was the feeling before things started.
Not this bloke in particular, but all of them atm. I'm sort of feeling like I crested the crapola. Hesitating if I needed added crapola in my life.
My gal mates seem to filling some of those voids and spaces I didn't think filled without male company. That mythical space of the lbs doesn't care too much and is indifferent to not just the h, but all r seems to be very real.
I'm really liking my things as they are, given h and his warped crapola I'm not sure I want to entirely give up my space. That time we hated I am back to liking it, not hating it. I like the house being just mine. I like the whole bed being mine.
But last week I was craving touch, and just plutonic sort not the ummmm Ma rude stuff! Achey bones. Well snuggling would be good...
Although I'm not being closed off, and there been plenty of late night chatting. I am going out with him and his house mate this weekend. Doing some stuff. It's often hard to translate that easy feeling you get chatting online to a irl sitch. I still felt akward and really uncomfortable why is that one a problem when they become Pom. Sigh
Even harder when the person is in a place where you know how tough it is. As you mentioned edz, at 5mo we were all if honnest looking back not in as good space as we thought. Hell its been a year and it's just coming together. I cannot fathom how hard a bad r combined with death would be.
And ms fix it has well and truely divorced mr fix it and has run out of duck tape.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
