Had a nice weekend. S wasn't feeling well on Friday. H had him and ended up staying home from work and school with him. After work, I asked H if he could bring S my way or if I should go there to pick him up. H answered that S wanted to lay down and if it was ok to go his way to pick him up. Being that I really want him at the house as little as possible with the whole "shopping" thing, I was fine with that. Something came to mind though. I remember, within a few months of my moving out, my house became an uncomfortable place for me to go to. It felt strange to me, especially with changes H was making to it. I wonder if H is beginning to feel that way as he is coming less and less and has silly reasons for it.
Anyway, S was standing at the door when I got there. I took him home to give him extra TLC for not feeling well. Dog was able to stay with me too as for whatever reason, she all of a sudden won't jump in the back of my truck. She can jump onto my bed, same heigth, with no problem. Not sure what is going on there, but she weighs almost as much as me. There is no way I can lift her. My friend says it's because she doesn't want to go to H's house. Lol. I am not so convinced of that.
I had S all weekend and we laid low. I put together my patio set all my myself! I love it, really adds to the yard. I decided last minute to have a few friends over on Sunday for a bbq. We had a really good time and they raved about how nice the yard and house are coming along. They are also friends of H, but his name never came up. Just a comment on how cute a picture of us was that I have on the fridge. It was the first time I have had friends over without H being around. It was very comfortable and so nice to enjoy myself without even missing H not being there. Huge step for me!
I debated and debated, should I invite H? These are his friends too. But I decided, it's best to leave H alone right now. Contact from him has been less and less, I sense something is going on there.....not sure what.....I just sense that it is best for me to stay as far in the background as I can right now. There will be lots more get togethers at my place, I will invite H when and if it feels right.
