Day is going really well. Decided last night that I was going to quit smoking cigarettes. Bought some nicotine patches, and am wearing one. Have had urges, but easier to tune those out when compared to thoughts of W and my situation, lol.
Speaking of that, though, even that front has been really good today. I finally feel like I am approaching things from an outsider's perspective, and with a beginner's mind, and the feelings towards the situation are changing. Not so much sad as much as I almost feel some pity, mostly for her but also for our son. I know I'll be fine, and I know S4 will be fine whenever he is with me. I cannot change how she feels, nor how S4 is when they are together, but I am getting to be OK with that.
Me: 30, W: 29 S: 4 T: 14 M: 5 BD: March, 2015, ILYBNILWY, IDLY, Need Space OM, EA/PA Discovered (drunken kissing, she says she stopped there? NOPE!): March 2015 S: April 25th, 2015
