Diana, I don't know your complete situation, but I believe today you need to act yes act... As If. A light went off and you completely understand everything about life and love. Do not tell him you love him, do not get into relationship talks. Let him open the door, and respond with things like "I never saw it from that perspective, thanks for the insight." or "I need to think about that before answering you."
He is placing on the blame on you. His life. His happiness. Is your burden, not his. Which is false. By saying you love him, kiss him, etc. You are reinforcing him or smothering him. It will only want him to move faster.
I will read the rest of your situation and come up to speed today.
Good luck today!!!
Me: 32 W: 29 T:8 M: 6 D4 S2 M - 8/2008 W is not happy - 1/2014 W wants D - 9/2014 W moved out - 11/2014 D filed - 1/23/2015 D'ed - 2/25/2015 Gave X the Letter - 11/10/2015