Yes raliced I am still here. A lot has happened since my last post although nothing has really changed. On Tuesday morning my father-in-law passed away. I pretty much dropped everything and tried to be supportive and we had a couple of nice days. My H debated about whether to go on the trip to Napa but in the end decided to go because my father-in-law had made all his arrangements and would have wanted him to go. I didn't have the heart to back out under the circumstances.
Wed and Thurs were nice days and I hoped to have four good days but them the texting started up again right under my nose where I could not escape it. Then he discovered that I was not wearing my wedding rings and went balistic--seems to be all about me not why I might have decided to stop wearing them.
So last night we took the red eye home from San Francisco to Virginia then had about an hour of sleep before family visitation and a funeral tomorrow. I am trying to overlook a lot of fatigue, and stress, but he has really turned into a hateful person today and I seem to be getting the brunt of the anger. Non stop texting the OW, plenty of digs and comparisons.
Dreading this week. Looking for a counselor to get started on me and started Co-Dependency for Dummies. Trying to get back to working on me but feeling really low and lonely....and frankly not liking my H very much right now.
