TLEE86. Part III

[TLEE86]

V- You should. Its a great song. Thanks for checking in. Im not entirely sure I made the right choice yet.

Z- I am trying. Very hard. But its pretty rough.
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So quick update. Idk how its going. I don't think very well. I think W came here for a D. She's already called a D lawyer since she's been here (didnt tell me she did, I snooped- I know I shouldn't have).

Its been very weird. We've been around each other for 1 week, in this house for 5days now. On the positive, she loves the house, loves the base, and everything around here. Said she wishes she came here when I was gone and got everything settled.

On the negative, she consistently talks to OM every chance she gets. She has mentioned several times she wants to leave and doesnt want to be here. When she "calms down" and gets in a better mood, she tells me sometimes she wants to leave and sometimes she doesnt. That its all pretty overwhelming and she's still getting used to being here.

She gets sad and says that things just aren't the way they used to be, that she remembers what it was like before when things were good, and she just cant get there.

But yet somehow we still go out and go shopping to decorate the house, and go alot of places together and have fun and she wants to meet people from my work.

I feel like I'm doing everything wrong- seriously, i do. Ive told her that she's beautiful or she looks great, I am very...possesive? meaning i don't like it when she's doing things herself because i know she's just talking to OM when she's out, and.....ive even told her I love her (when she's crying) and she just says she knows i do.

Idk how to stop this. I know this isn't the right thing to do. Ive told her and asked her not to talk to OM while she's here but i cant really stop this....and I've just told her lets take things one day at a time. She just replies, she is trying to do that.

Ive even called her out on it and said i feel like she came here half-cocked to just say she tried but she really isn't, and when she's here, to just be here. And she just replies, well i don't want to be here. Then she calms down a little later and says sometimes she wants to leave, sometimes she doesnt.

I just don't know what to do anymore. Oh btw, she somehow found this site, i doubt she reads it daily but I'm going to be changing names sometime soon. Any advice? I really truly believe I'm failing.