gan - re checking for posts: It may be something to do with the co-dependent thing. Am I looking for validation from others because I'm not completely comfortable within myself? I get angry if I dwell on how unfair it all is or if I think about WW with OM.

Ah frugality. I just let a right bargain of a bike slip on eBay because of it. And it was in the town where I work so no shipping costs either. Back on my 20 year old Marin tomorrow then. At least I’ve given it a bit of a tweak today. Three new spokes, adjusted the brakes so they work, which is important as my first mile is downhill fast.

Yesterday, I went to a meeting of co-dependents anonymous. Too early to tell if this is for me, but I shared a bit of my feelings and thoughts with the others there. It was a little scary, but not as much as it would have been without all this self examination.

I woke up feeling a bit down so as well as CoDa, I tried to busy myself during the day:
  • did some washing
  • did the washing up
  • found a garage that specialises in Mercs and booked mine in for a service on Tuesday
  • went to Lidl* for two items and spent £65 (mainly on cycling stuff inc a workshop stand :-)
  • went to a gig - Stornoway at the lovely De La Warr Pavillion. I hadn't heard them before, but they were great. Beautiful songs, lovely harmonies and performed well. They also engaged with the audience in an informative and chatty way. Apparently, the oldest ever fossilised spider web was found in Bexhill-on-Sea. I did know about the petrified forest and dinosaur footprints at low tide, but I didn't know about the smallest dinosaur that trudged around before Darwin was born.

I went to the gig on my ow as my flatmates were holding an AA meeting. Although I enjoyed it, I also found myself missing my wife as I looked at other couples and felt sad and moments of anger before I managed to rein them in.

* Lidl is a German owned supermarket known for cheap but decent quality 'different' branded goods ... and also a deadly buy it now aisle that changes every week.

I started this post first thing this morning and left it to finish later, but now it’s bed time so I’ll have to post this now and finish it off tomorrow.

Last edited by Old Dog; 04/26/15 11:04 PM.

M: 57 / EW: 52
T: 21, M: 8
S: 18, S: 15
Bomb: 1 Jun 14
EA Aug 2014 I think
PA Feb 2015 possibly sooner