gan 6 - return to human be-ing

[Zelda09]

What on earth would make you think you're narcissistic?

To a certain extent, you can read those lists of 'qualities' and recognize them, but so many are pretty healthy and normal.

If we are truly reading your innermost thoughts, I sincerely doubt it!

The anger stage - probably because you are still feeling hope and compassion for your H. Anger requires feeling your values were infringed upon, injustice, all those things. Perhaps you are too kind or well adjusted to feel wronged in this?

Hugs, Gan.

From a distance it looks as though you and your H were compatible and the sparks stopped and he wanted more sparks in his life. If you truly want him, I cannot say that NC is your friend. He wanted a 'better relationship' with you but couldn't define it. I read this as you are tremendously important to him, but he doesn't know how or where to file you now. What I will say to you is going to sting perhaps, because my bestest friend (male) told me the same thing in Nov:

Your H has already divorced you and made the decision to work at accomplishing that a while ago. Emotionally.

This doesn't mean he doesn't have feelings for you. You loved each other for 15 years. You said he sounded like he was crying at the end of the phone call.

I say you not only have the gift of time, but the gift of a fresh start with him if it is what you want. If he is amenable to the idea of seeing you as a friend, I'd take him up on it, and enjoy each other, flirt, re-connect and re-attract, show him the sparks can be there.

If you can accept the idea your M is dead, and go at this with no expectations, I'd say that's your best shot.