What an exhausting day. Riding a motorcycle all day long is exhausting. Thankfully I did not dump my bike even once. One more day tomorrow.
I went for coffee with my H today. We ended up talking for over 2 hours. And I did everything wrong lol!!! I did start out very happy, actually I still am happy. No reconciliation, but there is still love. He wants to go out riding with me when I get my bike next week and was totally flabbergasted that I'm getting my licence and bought a bike. He is so happy for me! We will date and see where it goes. Biggest concern for him has always been the dependence of my adult children on me to provide for them and the multitude of animals. Now I have only 2 that actually belong to me, the rest my son brought into the household but doesn't take care of. I have to figure out what to do about that. I know I indulged my kids for far too long to the point of running myself ragged and then becoming sick. Yes my H left me during the worst time of my life, but if he didn't I would still be on my path of destruction. This has snapped me out if it. I need to take care of me!!! I need to find my own happiness! I have to take control of my health and live! Lots to think about and figure out. Regardless of what happens, I will forever be grateful to him for doing that.
Di-mond in the rough M-45 H-38 My children S-25 D-23 T 5 M 4 H left April Fools Day 2015
