Part 19 - keeping on keeping on

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Thanks guys

Yup toots you've been peeking at my intentions obviously. Whilst I obviously want and hope for full reconciliation I've come a very long way from the lost lamb of post one. I'm grateful for having s,him staying, him building our relationship together again. I have a nice home and the bft.

Then, amazingly, in the past few weeks w has by her own admission made the amazing turn from us together being a laughable proposition that she could never entertain to a possible and maybe desirable option. Indeed on Monday when we were discussing her concern on telling her mum she said she is leaning to reconciliation just not there yet. These are all developments that I'm grateful for and can be content with for now and keep on keeping on!

They also stand alongside all the changes in me physical, emotional and mental that leave me as a better me.

Sometimes I get lonely for her to be here, it would be odd if I didnt but I have a busy life now w commented she didnt want a return to me hanging around her all the time suffocating her and thats something that's hard to imagine happening or me wanting anymore, she also said that our breakdown in talking she can't imagine being possible again as she's unloaded everything she ever thought she couldn't say and we've calmly talked through it, she doesn't see it would be possible for her to have something she couldn't raise in the future.

Of course... Were not there yet positive as all this is.

So one day at a time, keep doing what works for (not me but) us as a family unit and patience, all is patience

Cheers all