The funny thing is...given what you have written I know the traps you set for yourself, around recognising how truely amazing you are! We are so practised at dimming our own light and letting others shine. Time for a change..I'm not sure how, but if you get a handle on it , let me know! Lol I'll keep plugging away my end.
Re the feeling of limbo, I think you start moving out of it when you start digging deep for why you are dimming your own light....I'm working on this, and well, quite frankly...it is a but a** ...but likely extremely worthwhile...
Hey till I see you at that next gathering and we can talk about ourselves to each other...not sure who would be listening, but it would be nice to see you there lol