She's become more much more distant since the "meltdown" at the end of last week. I have been focusing on being upbeat and having good PMA. I know it's mind reading, but I feel like she thinks I'm okay with everything. Like I'm a doormat.
She keeps asking me what she needs to do for me to trust her again. I lied and told her that her actions will build trust. I feel like a liar because I don't know how to answer the question. I want to answer her question with a question. Why? Why do you need me to trust you?
She has lied about having sex with OM. Lied about seeing him almost every weekend since dday. However, she has been very honest about not loving me and wanting to divorce me.
I don't want to give up, but I think I should start respecting what she has been honest about. I haven't been GAL like I need to. I haven't been DBing enough the past week and need to refocus.
The decree may be finalized next week. Once it is, I'm moving out.
M:42 W:43 T:14 M:10 S:9 D:5 W filed 12/22/14 EA 12/31/14 PA 4/10/15 D final 5/13/15
