Very difficult! There have been times I want to just touch him, kiss him, hold his hand, and other things not appropriate for posting!

It's even more difficult because he was always very sexual, me not so much, one of our big issues...I would guess without reading the book we had a SSM.

On the flip side, without pursuing there can be no rejection..which I'm still so fearful of although he's already rejected me.

Last edited by lost18; 04/24/15 01:24 PM.
Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since