Contradictions? My life is full of contradictions. What do you expect? I'm just biding my time. Trying to be Zen about it. Sure I try to detach and let things take their course, but at the same time I have a deep need to be in control of my life, have my hands on the wheel. It's a contradiction in itself. Being torn between letting life take its course and dragging life kicking and screaming to where I want it to go.

Everything else in my life is going great. My business is booming, my band is rocking, the RH is starting to fill up. There's just that huge hole in my heart that's the elephant in the room.

M: 59 W: 53
M: 9 yrs
T: 14 yrs
No kids together but D30(hers), S27, S24, D21(all 3 mine)
W moved out 11/18/2013
D-Day 12/14/2013
W moved back home 12/1/2014