You seem afflicted with the same condition I have: turmoil in head is greater than actual happenings, no?
What if you were to put it aside and start acting AS IF you are a happily married man? I know...
But it seems so many times on this board ppl jump to LRT or hanging back when the 180s and As If would be more appropriate. I just wonder in your sitch since the line of demarcation to start hanging back was "when spouse has firmly closed door on marriage." She is physically reaching out to you. I know trust is scary and you don't want to get your heartbroken.
But, what if you keep doing what is working - your 180s - no R talk - and just go all out man she fell in love with and court her in little ways daily?
Mid 30's Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH D 9/15; NC forever on
