Hey uR & job. The game was cooooooollld! So cold! I was bundled up. D14 scored 5 goals! I am in the parking lot now... Just dropped her and 2 friends off at Panera.
I didn't see xh. But d14 said she saw him and she didn't look in that direction again bc it made her sick. And he looked weird. He was dressed weird.
Ahhhhh.... Some things don't change. Including the spending of money for someone who has none.
I was fine. I am fine. Just hearing that makes me feel a little upset, but that's just a a normal feeling these days!
Gonna keep doing me. Got some plans coming up and more in the works.
I know one thing for sure. I am so much better without contact. I could be ok without seeing him again. It sounds harsh. But it's not in anger. I want to have our memories as good one. Then end it there.
Now, he offers me nothing but pain and hurt. That is it. Not one ounce more. I don't want that in my life anymore. I am healing from the wounds. Cleaning up the mess. And I want to leave it alone once it's done. I don't need it to continue. Seeing him, texts, anything to do with him today is only a painful reminder of who he has become.
I just want to gracefully fade away from him. Or.... Slam the friggin door. Lock it. Pad lock it. Chain it. Bolt it. Kick it with the bottom of my foot to make sure it's closed tightly. And for good measure... Put a dead end sign on it.
