First Day of going dark (well as dark as I could considering circumstances). I stayed busy, stayed scarce out of the same room, didn't speak unless he came to talk to me then I listened intently but didn't offer up any additional conversation. I remained cheery & kind, just didn't give him attention.

He did come to find me several times to initiate conversation. I cooked dinner but let him it with the kids alone.

I don't think he liked it...score! He seemed bothered & sad! Now only if he didn't have OW, I'm sure it would be more effective!

I think that going dark after having our MC conversation on Monday is the right thing to do. He says he doesn't want me, he wants separate lives so now he won't have my sweet, loving attention!

I went to Dr today. I should've done that in the beginning (but who knew I'd still be here). The Dr & her office manager were so kind to me & really got behind me. They gave me all this information where to find help, get me on antidepressant & told me to call if I need anything. Dr said she wants to make me better, stronger & said lets get you bulletproof! Love it!

I feel better (at least for now).


M40 H38
M13 T15
D10, D8 & S5 (Special Needs)
H refuses MC & wants Mediate D
BD 3/2/15 & H left, EA 3/15/15, probly PA
A Grateful Heart is a Magnet for Miracles!
I have decided I will save our Marriage!