Well.... He broke his silence. It's been over two months. The longest ever. He texted something about s18s grades being bad. I didn't open the text, so I'm not entirely sure.
The ironic thing is the s18s report card came yesterday. It was the best he has done since bomb. It was actually decent. Not high 90s like it used to be- but, hey, I'll take it. And, maybe there is a coincidence that not only has this been his best report, but he hasn't spoken to xh through the marking period, where he had some communication previously. S18 seems more settled, comfortable, and mature, and I'm proud of his growth.
Anyway, when I saw he texted me, I was shocked. Not prepared. I'm not going to respond. That ship has sailed. I did get some anxiety, but nothing- not even remotely close to what it was like before. I am so glad for that.
But, as I realize there will be more seeing him now, I feel disappointed. It is such a bummer... The thing I love so much is watching my kids play sports (or whatever they are involved in). And now, I have to endure his presence. I know I will work it out for myself- but it does stink. It shouldn't be like that. For so many reasons.
Today is d14s first lax game of the season. So, I guess I will have to get used to it. It was such a nice break.
