Alright, woman....the Charles David wedges comment made my day!! I do love how you write, and then to punctuate it with such a warm, happy shoe image? You're still my girl-crush, G.
You sound great. I'm glad you're entertaining the idea of change. I know how much you like that *change* stuff... heehee.
So, when you feel those anxious pings of newness hit your chest, try not to confuse that with a bad gut-instinct. What I mean is, once you push yourself past a few of the unknowns, you're going to get a rush of "holy cr@p I did it and it's so freaking cool! Why didn't I do this sooner?"
I sense that deep down, you know you are smart, capable, funny, a great mom, and thousands of other awesome things.
Push yourself over those hesitations...the speed bumps. It's ok to take it cautiously. Just keep taking small steps.
Oh, and regarding posting to others??? You have as much, if not more, to offer people here in the experience you have. Your writing and inherent *wit* connected with me immediately. Please don't deprive others of the fabulous experience you gave me....er...unless you're just not up to it.