I've been fairly quiet lately. Dealing with some tough stuff with S13. Suicide thoughts and ideation.
He reached out to one of his friends and her Mom contacted me with his texts.
Reasons: -he feels emotionally abandoned by his mother for the past 4 years. -his migraines -doesn't want to live in a world of discrimination, injustice, meanness -he doesn't feel he is a good person
This was triggered Easter Sunday when his brother and myself were trying to get him to visit with his mother.
I waited 24 hours to tell his mother as I wanted time to figure out how to approach him and also her, I didn't want her freaking out on him in his fragile state, she has historically been extremely sensitive to anything critical of her, and she would take/did take his feelings of abandonment by her personally and as criticism. She answers my updates of the sitch and what I'm doing with one word.
I found him IC and he wants to work with her.
There will be no more pressure to see his mother, she even agreed to that, so I will be picking him up from school on her days.
Taking him to chiropractor who the whole family has been seeing for years for help with his migraines. He is up on our sitch and was wonderful with him, giving him grandfatherly advice and some counseling.
I also found a bunch of research from mayo clinic and other universities finding a deficiency of magnesium and B2 as co-factors in migraines, so I have him on a supplement plan based on that research and his body weight. This is in addition to his Topamax.
This weekend he called me from his friends house, thanking me for always being there for him, that he knows I will always be there, and that he loved me.
His moodiness seems to have leveled off some, and he promised he would call someone or a hotline, and has made a contract with the IC to not harm himself without speaking with her first and he has her cell phone number.
We are working together on continuing to re-do the house "our" style, and we have made plans to move to an area he wants to move to in a couple years when I get a chunk of the debt paid off.
Otherwise, life is still good and being re-built in my own idiom.
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
