Is it really to late? Who knows....

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The sad part is that I know anything I may have found on that phone is old news...like July 2014 old...so I may have found multiple OW's or pics of him physically with an OW....not sure what I was even hoping to find. I don't know if I've ever mentioned this, but I have the name and phone number of the woman he had/has some sort of A with from the UK. And I may or may not be connected to her on LinkedIn...I've had this information since July 2014 and she requested to connect on LinkedIn in Dec. I have done nothing with it...but I have it.

If he knows that I tried to snoop he hasn't and won't say anything because he doesn't want the conversation either...maybe for different reasons.

I'm not ready for the hard questions because I'm still holding on to hope that we can turn this around and if I ask he'll have to answer, and although he is not moving forward with a D he hasn't decided against it either.

I guess if I ask the question "is asking the hard questions going to get me closer to my goal?" I'm not sure that the answer is yes, as my goal is still to save my marriage, therefore I can't ask the questions right now.

So, it is what it is...for now.